i have never felt so much relief in my life... my english teacher does her grades in a different way, we start at zero then add up as the semester goes on, and i do my assignments and i get points, raising my grade. she said that an a is 900-1000 points, and right now i have about 500 points.... so yes i was having a major freak out about it!

but she just sent out an email saying that there can only be a total of 888 points possible, so with the next couple of major paper i will turn in, i will be okay...

can i say huge relief????? yes i can. and it was.

best week home possibly ever.

this week i either spent with my family, or with friends. playing games, watching movies, and of course getting almost sick from eating so much!!

i will not lie these next couple of weeks i feel might be rather tough for me... didn't help that when i woke up this morning i spilt my cup of water right when my alarm went off, sending water all over my desk... but i have big plans for this week that have got me super duper excited!!

1-make stuffed mushrooms- I love them, and had a few at thanksgiving and want some more :)

2-make snow flakes and cover my room/apartment with them.

3-go to walmart in these crazy snowy roads... i have to face my fears sometime!

4-make a mini snowman and place it somewhere for people to enjoy

and oh ya... go to my last week of classes!!!

ten things i love about my new home

1- the girlies i get to call family

2-my quotes formed into rain clouds

3- sitting in a banana chair whenever i'd like

4- looking at pretty pictures of flowers in my living room

5- having access to almost every chick flick in about two min

6- having my shoes hang from a door

7- being able to hide under my bed when playing hide and seek

8- hearing the girls from the floor under me join in on our dance parties

9- having the cutest bed of all time

10- putting together sentences on my fridge

today feels like everything should be in center alignment.

i have enjoyed my day:

 sleeping in the cutest /comfiest bed (thanks mom for giving it to me)

making delicious pasta with my 2nd favorite cheese, parmasion of course!

looking at the most creative blog ever created!!!

 inspired from that and then made my quote wall into a rain cloud wall 

even though I'm stressed major about English papers

i can not help but sit here and be in total happiness... because,

this world is way too awesome to spend time being sad! 

i have decided to remember the happy things in my day...

and everyday i will share five of those happy things, 

or thoughts i had,

because everyone knows i am the one who needs to remember

to be happy 

:)

my day with kendra, including other things :)

it starts with going to nutrition and actually having nutrition kid talk to me! then i wore a jacket i do not wear often and found a sorcerious stone from my high school harry potter week... then getting to talk to some pretty great girls :)
after that i went back home and didn't want to just sit around so i cleaned part of the kitchen in detail...
another great thing was i went and watched a movie in my schools library which i have been wanting to for a while now...

at six o clock i watched a french spelling bee, oh how i love college and all the random outings i get to be a part of!! thanks to my room mate kendra for tonight's shin dig :)

then had a big chocolate shake, another thank you to Kendra... then to top the day off spent almost an hour laughing on the phone with a special boy named curtis... i would say it was a great day.

quote of the day

"whatever is at the center of your life,

 will be the source of your

security

guidance

wisdom and 

power."

-Stephen Covey

Clydtessa

there is a poster by my elevator that tells what can't be in the building. One of the things is animals, but in parentheses it has small fish are allowed.... that made me want a small fish. so i went and got one.

when i went to walmart i wanted a boy fish, cause i am a girl, and we needed testosterone in the apartment. but when i saw my selection of fish to choose from, the boys were ugly. so i decided on a girl. i named her Chlydtessa, i call her Chlyd for short (secretly a boy in my mind still) i took Chlyd home and put her in her new home... and ever since then we have been enjoying each others company.

only problem is i think Chlyd has turrets... Chlyd is a Betta fish, so she is a tough one... even bit my finger once... anywho, she randomly will jerk around in her bowl. moving the pebbles she has in the bowl, and jetting around like something is wrong with her... it is very concerning, as well as very entertaining.

i know if you are not satisfied with your product that you can return it and get a full refund, but i think i will keep Chlydtessa, even though she could possibly have turrets.

my chariots of fire

today in institute (AWESOME lessons lately) we had another lesson on trials :)

and in our trials how when we are in them, and feel all alone like no one is there to support us... if we could only see things without the veil over our eyes, we would see chariots of fire as far as the eye could see.

full of spirits their to help us.

makes me think of my grandparents who have passed away, and in times of doubt and worry and sorrow for me, i can always feel their precense... gently squeezing me and comforting me.

it also makes me think of my future children, pushing me towards the right direction... cheering for me when i do something good, or helping me remember to not do something bad.

I'm so happy that i have such a huge support system, on the earth, and in the heavens.

so today was also just another great day!! the best part was my floor had a party like shin dig. and my ra hillary (best ra ever known!!) had us trace ourselves on this huge sheet of paper.  then we had to write everything we liked about ourselves... i thought of things pretty quickly for this. the best was then she had us write what we didn't like about ourselves, and if you would have asked me that question a week or so ago i could've given you a list of like hundreds of things... but tonight, i honestly had to hesitate for a while about it!!!! yes you heard right, sara gagon hesitated when asked what she didn't like about herself. the other crazy thing is i think of at least twenty negitive things about myself in a day, but today, i didn't have a single negitive thought about myself.
the thing that made it change, was some advise a girl gave me... to pray to not have those negetive thoughts... and i can say from experience, it works. and i can say i am so so so happy.
:) :) :) :) :)

best. day. ever.

so yesturday, not so great. i spent most of the night in the tub. and the other part talking to amazing friends.
from talking to those amazing friends, i was ready for today!!
i woke up happy, which never happens cause i have to get up at seven thirty, which may not seem that early but it is for a college student! but i went to swim... and i actually went to institute today, which was just what i needed to hear!!! my institute teacher talked about trials, and how we need them in our lives so we can enjoy the good times too... and that we are a plank of wood, that needs to be "sanded" down. the sanding part being our trials, so we can be smooth and ready for eternal life...ah the best. one of the quotes i looked at was,
"just when all seems to be going right, challenges often come in multiple doses applied simultaniously. when those trails are not consequences of disobedience, they  are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more. He therefor gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for your everlasting benefit. to get you from where you are to where he wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain."
-Elder Richard G. Scott

even when i am doing everything that i am supossed to be, i still have trials... because Heavenly Father thinks i can handle it, and that i need it to be ready to love with him.
if he thinks i can handle it, then i can... believing that was very hard for me until today. i can now say i am ready for whatever he throws at me. because i have him to help support me.

as you can tell today has jsut been amazing. i am soo thankful for institute, and how it always is exactly what i need. i am also thankful for the friends i have in my life. how i can call any of them and no that they will answer, and listen to me... even help me feel better. so thank you friends :)

typical sunday

today was fast sunday... which i do enjoy fast sundays, so that was nice.

the main thing that happened today was i curled my hair today, for the first time since... i think eight grade!! it was interesting, and confusing with a straightener, but i figured it out :) and i can now say my hair is now long enough to curl it, and have it not look like some strange wig that looks like it has been shoved in a corner for ten years :)

my room looks empty now, my room mate megan took down her leaves that were hanging from the ceiling... i oddly miss them.

my fish is now "talking" to me again, it makes me very very happy.

typical weekend in cedar

so i have become obsessed with this one photographer... couldn't tell you her name, but i am in love with her stuff!!!!! she has a very artistic way of doing engagment pictures....
 last night all my room mates (who were home) put their beds in the living room and we watched a movie :)
today me and chantel (one of my room mates) are heading to the st george temple!!! to make this day even better, we are going to cost co after!! yay i will get to have my favorite pizza!!! :) thanks to mom and dad who have given me a cost co card!
i forgot to feed my fish thursday, as well as friday, poor klydtessa wouldn't even look at me!! :) if you are wondering how a fish could offend me by not looking at me, it's because before bed, i sit in my chair at my desk and she stares at me, i stare at her back. of course i tell her about my day... and then get into my bed. it's great. so that is why i was so sad, because i couldn't do that with her these past couple nights... but that will all change because i just fed her :)

college classes... fun?

so i waited until twelve last night to hurry and sign up for my next semester of college. I found out I am not smart enough for the average math class, and i now have to take a math class as an extra instead of something fun... lame. sauce. but i did sign up for a dance class, and a drawing class, so those should be awesome!!!
only 19 more days tell thanksgiving break, and i can not wait!!!!

day one of blogging!!

so... I basically made this thing because I didn't want to study my nutrition flash cards. But I am pretty excited to share all my great stories with... probably myself. :) I am pretty freaking excited about it!!! Today I get to wait tell twelve to sign up for the next semesters classes. I will be signing up for classes for the first time by myself, sad I know. But I have the greatest mom who would always do it for me... HOW I MISS HER!!! Especially when she would sign up for me!
blog done :)