past blogs

so looking at the things i have written tonight...
it's interesting what i have written about...
i realized:
-i seriously regret not taking institute, it seemed to have helped me alot last semester...
-i have written twice in here about being more positive :) funny.
-my blogs lately have been LAME sauce, i will get more creative once english stops sucking my writing soul out of me...
-i forgot about chlydtessa, she passed away a while back, i now miss her and my talks with her.

point of this random blabbing... if you have a blog, go look at past entries you have done. it's just like looking at your old journal entries :) it's fun to see changes. and oddly for me, when i read my more spiritual blogs, i learned from what i wrote again... if that makes sense :)
it's cool. so go do it. now.
oh and another thing, i liked how i did over and out at the end of some of them... so.
over and out.

friends:)

no friendship should be ever just tossed aside... 

even if you feel like it could never be repaired, a friend is always nice to have.

 and every friend has something that you can love and grow from.

even if they are mean to you, or ignore you, 

it could just be because they are going through a hard time...

 and honestly that is when you need to push for their friendship the most...

 because they need you, whether they admit that or not.

so am i excited that jamal actually answered my text? yes.

because he is a friend,

and even if he was mean to me...

i still need to be his friend.

he may need me, but i think i may still need him too.

to learn more about myself and life.

so i welcome back our friendship

:)

i dislike english.

this weekend was grrrreat. for reals... but unfortunately it is not the weekend anymore, and i can no longer pretend i do not have school, or work, or any responsibility.
can i just have a moment to say that i wish english 1010 or 2010 could drop off the face of this planet... or better yet any of the english classes for that matter!! i know they are here to help me, but right now they are doing the opposite. they are just stressing me out, and making me think i may not live through this week, let alone month.
did i say i don't enjoy english right now? because i don't.
but on the bright side, i only have thirty five more days of school, counting finals week. :)

great day? check.

it started at eight, when i woke up with a nice shower that helped me smell good.
    then to a meeting with my english teacher that went at the speed of light, who knew my favorite teacher                    .     would be from english?
         then to my home, where i wasted away the day with my brother and father.
           next to the temple with curtis and liss... with little sneaky smiles and spirit butterflies. :)
work... BEST day yet!!!!!!!! i spent the whole time:
-not making a single survey, and that being totally exceptable
-laughing with my new friend joey
-making a certain someone jealous... yeeessssssss.
                 then to my ward auction for salsa and a new hair thing.
                      end the night off with phase ten with those same friends from the temple.

and who ever said thursdays can't be the best day of the week???.... not me :)

dear headphone man,

yes you sitting across from me at the other school provided computer...

 i dispise you right now.

sure you may have an endless seeming amount supply of food in your back pack,

but others in this library may not...

 aka me.

 and who may in fact be trying to cut back on thier food intake at this time.

so would you please do this world a favor

(basically just me in this particular world)

and stop with the eating?????

thanks bunches,

starving sara.

random tid bit.

so for all of those who are in the different part of the state today... today has been rather cloudy overcast. it even rained/sleeted at one point today. so i hadn't worn my sunglasses in the car (i normally do)
so life goes on you may say...
i take a little visit to walmart with my mother, and go back to doing my homework in the front room(where i always do it) and i am now squinting from the sun...
one may say so. it's utah. that's how the weather always is... which it's true, but when i looked out the window i didn't see a cloud in sight.
all the clouds in the sky can't disapear in ten seconds, it just isn't possible... but where was i when they were in the process of clearing?
it was just a weird sensation so i thought i would document it :) that's what this blog is for right?
right.

new me?

so i have kinda gone out of control these past few months... eating wise i mean :) haha i am now so bad if i don't have gum in my mouth, i have food in it.
but.
i want to feel good about my body, which has never happened honestly. but i know i can't just wish for it... so here is my plan (and yes i have to blog about it because if i don't it wont ever happen)
1-only have two sweets a week... and eventually once a week.
2-exercise everyday, right now it's run a mile, walk a mile with some muscle stuff... that will increase too:)
3-drink water...LOTS of water
4-get my veggies on. aka actually eat the amount i need
5-somehow get fruits in as well
6-take those 1 a day pills i have
now i you may say, i already do these things (i mean you you, not me:) but i do not... i did at one point, but not anymore...but. i am starting back up like i said :)
you also may say that i could probably do all these things all at once, which could be true. but i would quit doing that after like a month, and this getting skinny thing will take probably a year or more... not a month.
it will be hard. but hey i want to love myself, not just tolerate myself... if the whole losing weight thing works i will document it on this bad boy :)

now this next part i may seriously regret... if you see my slacking on this ''new me'' you can get after me... yes that means that everytime you (yes even lisa and liss) see me eating a sweet, or not exercising you can get mad at me and remind me of my goal... but remember i am a sensitive girl :)
yay for my new plan... it may start tomorrow because my dad has decided to go to his favorite pizza place.... haha

facebook

when i get online now the two places i always have to check is my dashboard for blogger... and facebook.
why facebook? i don't know. none of my friends really do much on facebook. but. i still find myself spending much too long looking at honestly nothing!
today of course i get on my two usual sights... and i go to write a little funny, but also depressing statement for my status and could not think of anything whatso ever. i wanted to comment on how i do not want to be awake right now, or that work just may some how strangle me, or me wanting to blame my crankiness on day light savings... but nothing sounded good... so instead i decided to blog about in all my frusteration. :)
one of the most pointless blogs ever? yes. but hey i have nothing else to do except look at a boys facebook page who i can no longer pretend to be friends with... lammmme.

i think i may know what i want to do for a career... i have been thinking of doing it for a very, very long time... but i am making it official, sort of, i am going to get a degree in social work, then a masters in social work. then go and work in a corrections facility, or something along those lines... maybe even in a prison. 

and be the counselor for them :) 

i have always had some of an interest in these types of places...

and that interest turned to something more when i started college,

i think i would be good at counseling these hurt children, because i just feel like i could do it.

and a good friend told me that i didn't have to go through what they did to be able to listen

and help them...

it's exciting, but also scary to know what i want to do for my career...

what do you think?

good idea?

or bad?

my new pondering place.

the car.

who would've thought that my beat up

(on the outside, not inside)

mazda 626

car

could be the place where i think about life now?

don't fret my little shower...

i still think in there too,

i just have a new place when i don't want to be wet.

who says monday is horrible?

i know i don't. now i normally do call it one of the worst days of the week... but of course my month of being positive, today i decided to only notice the great things about Monday, and if i thought something negative... i would replace it with good thoughts as quick as possible. :)
Mondays are always great because:
1- i never have cereal on the weekends, so Monday it is a well missed item.
2- classes always seem to be there easiest on Monday
3- lunch is awesome because Sunday left overs are. the. best. ever.
4- there is always something sweet to have because of Sundays dessert.
5- work always seems to go by extremely quick
6- fhe is on Mondays, and i love fhe
7- homework always seems it's easiest on Mondays
8- i don't get lonely because i have the past weekend to reflect on
9-i don't blog stock on the weekend so Monday i always have a bunch to catch up on!
this Monday was especially great because:
-sleeping in the school library is just way to great
-playing a math review game, and being put with all the crazies in my class, i think fate gave that to me to make me all giggly for the rest of the day.
-having someone who seemed like didn't want to be my friend anymore, sit by me at work... and even talk to me with a smile on his face :) definitely made my day.
-i conquered driving in the snow... even when i wanted to have my momzy drive me (for you liss:)
              i think the best part about today was i have finally started to find my confidence in myself... i often loose it... but i have found it!! (it was under my bed covers/many blankets) and now that i have found that confidence again, i was able to walk around my school with my head held high, and even though i didn't have my hair done all cute, or i didn't have my favorite outfit on... i still felt pretty.   that new confidence even led me to talk to new people at work, not a whole bunch, but remember i just found it :)

Mondays can be a great thing if we let them be... well any day can be the best day, the only thing that is stopping it from being the best day is our own thoughts. :) . . . now i am going to make Tuesdays be the next best day, because i want it to be.

did i sign up for this?

i had decided at the beginning of this month that there was no point in complaining... and all it does is waste time. it ruins my mood and it only makes situations worse instead of making them better, which why would you complain then?
everyone that knows me (which is every single person who reads this :) knows that this goal may just be the hardest thing for me to possibly do... because i complain about basically everything in my life. even when there is something so amazing, i always have something to complain about...
but.
i want to change that... and it may just be the hardest thing i try and change about myself, but i really want to do it.
so from now on, or i am trying for a least the next two weeks to not complain about things, and be happy i am doing, or going through whatever it is i want to complain about... may seem like i can't do it, but by golley that makes me want to prove to all of you that i can.
wish me luck :)