hacked.

blog hack.
elissa butler is the best in the world.
she's my absolute favorite.
i love her.
i also love lisa jensen.
i also love my dogs.
i also love my really great life.
it wouldn't be as great without elissa.

today is the last day of 2011.
and i wouldn't want to spend it with anyone other than my loves.

dear 2012.
let's do this.

turning over a new leaf

all my life i have not loved the way i look.

some may blame it on the television,

or the movies, magazines, or all the other girls,

but i blame it one person and person only.

satan.

heavenly Father wouldn't ever want me to think the way i think about myself.

and if i saw another girl thinking what i was thinking about them selves i would get all upset and wish and pray that they could see the beauty that Heavenly Father gave them...

so why couldn't i see myself like i see everyone else?

i am turning over a new leaf.

i deserve to be happy.

i deserve to think i am pretty, even beautiful.

this picture is one of the first ones that i can see what i think could be beauty :)

even in my natural, un-make-up-ed state!!

we all deserve to feel beautiful...

some nice eye candy

now guess which one i chose to paint for my final painting in art!!!! aren't these pictures just so pretty???
ya. i thought so too.

life. what more can i say??

being obsessed with boys is hard sometimes, you are left thinking about them..... all the time.
wondering what they are doing
if they think about you sometimes too
if they even like you to begin with
going over the last time they talked to you, and trying to see if they are showing signs of. . . anything
thinking of what life would be if they said they liked you
thinking of what the first kiss would be like....

you get the idea, it takes over your thoughts!!!!
but,
even if you never find out what he thinks about or if he ever liked you... that one time he talks to you is enough.
enough to make you remember that you are someone who is worth something, and makes you see the beauty that you had forgotten about yourself... just with a simple "is your brother still living at home?"
and that all it takes to remind you that you can be loved.