life. what more can i say??

being obsessed with boys is hard sometimes, you are left thinking about them..... all the time.
wondering what they are doing
if they think about you sometimes too
if they even like you to begin with
going over the last time they talked to you, and trying to see if they are showing signs of. . . anything
thinking of what life would be if they said they liked you
thinking of what the first kiss would be like....

you get the idea, it takes over your thoughts!!!!
but,
even if you never find out what he thinks about or if he ever liked you... that one time he talks to you is enough.
enough to make you remember that you are someone who is worth something, and makes you see the beauty that you had forgotten about yourself... just with a simple "is your brother still living at home?"
and that all it takes to remind you that you can be loved.

Random British Want a be Rantings.

this girl is freakishly happy right now, there are many things in my life that i could be stressed and upset and mad about... but i don't really like feeling any of those emotions that much, so instead i am listening to my top rated play list on my i pod, and can't help but smile :)

some things i am smiling about:
-my paper i am writing on how we need to get the aspens trees to stop stressing... no joke.
-how i can do two loops in my hair now instead one, and it looks like a bow on top of my head
-actually loving a piece of art i did in my class!!!!! yay green pears and red accents
-the first snowish fall of this great year
-chocolate making
-dressing up as baby momma and having nooo one get it, and still being happy after...

i honestly am happy about everything right now!!! even things that should not make me happy, like math...

i think it's because i am starting to see the blessings Heavenly Father is POURING on me all at once!!!! it's so great to know that when i do the right things, he shows me that i am...
new computer for basically free, a possible perfect job, a perfect school schedule, and basically a perfect life!!! makes me wonder why i would ever not do the things that i am supposed too!

oh the joys of being a girl....

no this is not going to be about my lady parts, no sir!!! this is about the joys of feeling about one hundred different emotions in one day...
started with tired (of course) then ended with very happy.
                   in between was alot of other emotions but no need to list them all.
i did some homework that was much needed, not all of it but i am still happy,
supported my awesome brother in his softball game,
went running with a not too awkward return missionary, as well as my bff,
then came home to a much needed letter :) :) with some great testimonies and pictures... i'd show them but that'd be creepy.
and then basically ended my night with joining this blog.... isn't she just amazing???!!!! i thought so too :)
just wanted to tell you how my day went, i could go into greater detail like i normally do, but ya know what? i am over telling everyone about my entire life... or at least for tonight i am :)
over and out.

updates on my oddly full life.

for some reason ever since school started my schedule has filled up rather alot. it may becuase i spend a rediculous amount of time at school, and that even my pe classes make me buy books and do homework... or that i am also trying to train for a marathon...
which i want to touch just a bit on and give everyone some warnings...
wed night i was late at work so i told amanda (my running partner) to just go without me.
i took boone and started on the canal after nine.... lets just say someone pulled over their car, got out, and decided to follow me. . . and that boone is not a dog that understands that when i pick up my speed, i also want him to pick up his speed instead of trying to wait for this man who wanted to get me...
so advice i want to give to you about running at night... they may seem obvious, but of course i didn't think of them until it was too late.  
-when running at night, always ALWAYS take your phone.
-also when running at night, stay on roads where alot of people drive on... so then if someone tries to get you, they can't cause there are too many other cars/people on the road.
-and the obvious... just don't run alone!! and if you take a dog with you... try to take one that will actually defend and help you, not hinder you in your escape efforts.
don't worry, nothing bad happened other then boone got choked and i got scared.
everything else in my life is going great, still trying to get all organized fo;r school and my new calling...
but i have to go to class i jsut thought i would let you know whats been going on :)

check.

so i have just now realized that i have not updated my blog in a really long time!!! and it isn't really for anyone other then myself because i know no one else really truly wants to read my nonsense posts...
but updates for me for future reading to look back on this and hopefully see how much i have grown :)

lake powell.
one of the best vacations i have taken in a long long time.
i got to sit in the hot sun, and then jump into the water when it was just a little too hot.
also i got to spend all day in my swim suit, while eating AMAZING frozen caprisons.
facing my fear of failure (only because of the amazing lisa jensen, to whom all owe all the credit) and learning how to skurf? surf? (the exact word is not for sure)
getting to know some great human beings and realizing yet again that the world does stand a chance.
and last but not least getting to do all of this with my best friend lisa, thanks lub.

ya so i decided i don't really want to update about anything else, it gets too boring... even for me to see all the writing :)
over and out.